april 11, 2012
me: hello, i'd like to schedule an appointment..er...uhm.. i've had a few positive pregnancy tests, so... er, umm.. i'm just calling to see what the next steps are?
nurse: when was your last period?
me: march 14th
nurse: k hang on, let me see what we have available for your 8-10 week checkup
me: wait, i don't come in for a blood test to be sure?
nurse: nope, you have a normal history and no reason for concern, so we're good with the tests. we can just go with your positive pregnancy tests. [puts me on hold]
me: [quiet mind freak out moment- i thought i'd need a blood test to be sure sure! so now this is real? and we're doing this? and peeing on a stick with positive results just sealed my fate forever?!?! ok calm down, this is real. this is happening. you've been trying for this. omg! omg! omg! you're going to be a mom. that's scary! d's going to be a dad! that's trippy! WHHHOOOOOAAAA!
nurse: ok, how's may 17th at 10a?
me: uhm, ok if you think i don't need to come in any earlier, that will work.
nurse: great, we'll see you then. you can call back if you have any questions.
me: is there anything i should or shouldn't be doing between now and then?
nurse: don't drink or smoke and continue to exercise & eat well. other than that, we can go through more details during your visit. have a great day.
so, that's it! i'm pregnant! 6 tests over the past 4 days have confirmed it. after 6 months of trying, here we are. the funny thing is while we did everything at the right time this month, i didn't take any of the usual precautions. i didn't eat particularly well. i fell off my exercise routine a bit. i brought back drinking into my life. especially in kiawah. i drank a ton because i was sure it just wouldn't happen this month. i even frolicked in the hot tub. i just honestly didn't think about it. between crazy times at work and the kiawah trip, the two week wait came and went in a flash. in a muscle-relaxer induced sleep, i crawled out of bed on sunday morning thinking this is usually the time i test, so guess i should go ahead and try. after 3 minutes, i squinted my eyes and saw a faint second line indicating pregnancy. i immediately called d who was stunned and speechless! i met him for lunch, and we were surprisingly silent. i think we were just taking it all in. it's wednesday and things have started to sink into our minds. very, very, very slowly!
we're still cautious about telling the world even though there's a weird part of me that wants to tell everyone i know! i think i'll start leaking the news after we hear the heartbeat.
le bebe, that's the story of the beginning of the beginning. you're just a mere poppyseed right now. but you're already creating so much beautiful chaos and joy! oh the places we'll go......
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Showing posts with label bebe. Show all posts
plus three (part 3)
march 2, 2012
so as predicted, no dice last month. we just completed our 5th cycle of trying forjunior le bebe. i started the basal body temperature method (taking your temperature every morning before getting out of bed) a couple of weeks ago before aunt flow reared her fugly head. mostly to make sure my hormone levels were functioning properly but honestly it's so cool to see the chart at different part of your cycle. pre-ovulation, your temperatures remain low and post-ovulation they spike until aunt flow. after just two weeks, it's hard to tell, but mine seem a little wonky. i have a general lower & higher pattern, but my post-ovulation temps slowly rise instead of spiking. i don't know if a- this is a pattern or if i'm just having an odd month and b- if it's even abnormal to have a slow rise instead of a spike. either way, i'll continue charting until i get sick of it. seems like a lot of women find it to be a pain, but i actually find it really fascinating. our bodies are like one big magic trick to me. when my besties start trying for kids, i'll probably recommend this method + the opk method if they're up for it.
this two week wait is becoming easier every month. i've had enough cycles under my belt to know how my body reacts throughout the cycle. i'm still a little more on edge during this time, but i think it's getting better & better. i don't jump at every pang like i did the first couple of months. and i'll call that progress.
funny things during this baby making ride....
-the concept in general is weird. for your entire life, you're trying not to have get pregnant. and then once you decide you want to have a kid, you toss out all caution, and go for it and in just one cycle everything's different. you go from having anxiety attacks about a late period to being optimistic & giddy about a late period... from elated to see aunt flow to genuinely bummed to see her. such an engrained mentality changes literally overnight. it's wild.
-i've always been pretty aware of & comfortable with my body. but never to this extent! i feel for cervical mucus & position like it's as normal as peeing.
- because i've asked dr. google questions and read several womens' experiences on other sites, i'm familiar with so many new-to-me acronyms. my favorite are tww (two week wait), bd (baby dancing) and dh (dear husband. that one kills me!)
-the big O now stands for ovulation.
so as predicted, no dice last month. we just completed our 5th cycle of trying for
this two week wait is becoming easier every month. i've had enough cycles under my belt to know how my body reacts throughout the cycle. i'm still a little more on edge during this time, but i think it's getting better & better. i don't jump at every pang like i did the first couple of months. and i'll call that progress.
funny things during this baby making ride....
-the concept in general is weird. for your entire life, you're trying not to have get pregnant. and then once you decide you want to have a kid, you toss out all caution, and go for it and in just one cycle everything's different. you go from having anxiety attacks about a late period to being optimistic & giddy about a late period... from elated to see aunt flow to genuinely bummed to see her. such an engrained mentality changes literally overnight. it's wild.
-i've always been pretty aware of & comfortable with my body. but never to this extent! i feel for cervical mucus & position like it's as normal as peeing.
- because i've asked dr. google questions and read several womens' experiences on other sites, i'm familiar with so many new-to-me acronyms. my favorite are tww (two week wait), bd (baby dancing) and dh (dear husband. that one kills me!)
-the big O now stands for ovulation.
plus three (part 2)
2.07.2012
so this weekend i thought i started to feel the early pregnancy symptoms that all the google experts claimed i would- cramps, nausea, increased peeing, a slight metallic taste in my mouth and extreme fatigue. i've since debunked my symptoms:
cramps- doing an ab workout and then claiming i have cramps the next day probably doesn't indicate le bebe. to be fair, i was really achy the next day, and totally forgot that i did some bodyweight exercises the previous day. wait, is that fair? i don't know, maybe it's just dumb.
nauseous*- waking up ravenous at 6a on saturday, choosing to do nothing about it and sleep in until 10a will probably result in slight nausea because your body is pissed at you for starving it. again, no indication of le bebe.
increased peeing- it's because you're drinking a shit load more water to prepare for le bebe, stupid.
metallic taste in my mouth- i can't explain this one except that maybe i just thought i felt that because i knew it could be a possible symptom. i'm a total crazy person. why are you even friends with me?! but don't rethink your decision. pretty please.
extreme fatigue- i love to sleep. this weekend's naps were particularly lovely. i don't know if this will ever be a "symptom" to me.
sooo... i think i'm pretty much out this month, but honestly, under all my anxiety, i'm weirdly ok with it. trying is fun, i know my cycles pretty well now, and it's still early in our trying. after the 6th failed attempt, the doc said to come on in for further testing. so two more tries to go! and like i said previously, the blogosphere has really helped me. and emily's post today couldn't have come at a better time. it's nice to be back in reality.
* am i the only one out there that constantly misspells this word? can we just spell it 'nawshis' for idiots like me and call it good? i mean how many other 'seous' words are there out there anyway? don't think about it, i'm sure there are plenty. no need to kick me while i'm down.
so this weekend i thought i started to feel the early pregnancy symptoms that all the google experts claimed i would- cramps, nausea, increased peeing, a slight metallic taste in my mouth and extreme fatigue. i've since debunked my symptoms:
cramps- doing an ab workout and then claiming i have cramps the next day probably doesn't indicate le bebe. to be fair, i was really achy the next day, and totally forgot that i did some bodyweight exercises the previous day. wait, is that fair? i don't know, maybe it's just dumb.
nauseous*- waking up ravenous at 6a on saturday, choosing to do nothing about it and sleep in until 10a will probably result in slight nausea because your body is pissed at you for starving it. again, no indication of le bebe.
increased peeing- it's because you're drinking a shit load more water to prepare for le bebe, stupid.
metallic taste in my mouth- i can't explain this one except that maybe i just thought i felt that because i knew it could be a possible symptom. i'm a total crazy person. why are you even friends with me?! but don't rethink your decision. pretty please.
extreme fatigue- i love to sleep. this weekend's naps were particularly lovely. i don't know if this will ever be a "symptom" to me.
sooo... i think i'm pretty much out this month, but honestly, under all my anxiety, i'm weirdly ok with it. trying is fun, i know my cycles pretty well now, and it's still early in our trying. after the 6th failed attempt, the doc said to come on in for further testing. so two more tries to go! and like i said previously, the blogosphere has really helped me. and emily's post today couldn't have come at a better time. it's nice to be back in reality.
* am i the only one out there that constantly misspells this word? can we just spell it 'nawshis' for idiots like me and call it good? i mean how many other 'seous' words are there out there anyway? don't think about it, i'm sure there are plenty. no need to kick me while i'm down.
plus three (part 1).
2.1.2012
we officially started the baby dance on october 30th, 2011. it was crazy and exciting and romantic and hopeful. since we know we're as ready as we'll ever be, i stepped it up by ordering an ovulation predictor kit (opk). it sounds clinical and sterile, but from my research, it was one of the most hassle free ways to predict my fertile window. fuuuurrrtile. i've now added that to my list of words i take issue with, such as 'moist.'
we're now on our 4th month during the roller coaster known as the two week wait (tww) between fertile times and aunt flow's arrival. even though we're still considered at the beginning of what can be a long process, during the tww, i've becomeslightly extremely aware of every twinge, cramp, tired moment & otherwise noticeable change. here are some gems.
- the first month. i had three migraines in a row within a week. i consulted the google doctors who said all the hormone fluctuations could lead to that. i wondered if we nailed it on the first attempt! (pun intended)
- the second month. i really kicked it up with my paranoia. every single thing became abnormal for that month. that is until my period arrived.
- the third month. i came home from work and took a 2 hour nap. i also had really crazy vivid dreams. that combined with the cramps, and i was definitely pregnant. then the bitch came again.
- the fourth month. here we are. i just woke up from a nap. i'm feeling twinges in my lower abdomen. i'm crazy gassy, but that's not unusual. (ooo, too much?) and i've had all of these exact "symptoms" before. except this weird left eye twitching. oh but that started way before we even started trying. drats.
so. it took me 4 months to learn to not be hypersensitive until i miss my period and get a positive pregnancy test. and really, i haven't even learned that. but with 4 months under my belt, i do have a barometer of what's not abnormal. so i've toned down the over analyzing, and i'm calling that a small victory. here are other things that have helped.
- my awesome mister. david has been so super fantastic throughout this process. understanding when i painstakingly describe each weird thing that could increase our chances. understanding when i describe each symptom and what it could & couldn't mean. it makes me so excited to have a family with someone who tolerates my crazy.
- blogs. reading blogs through google searches has been surprisingly helpful. just the sense that there's a community out there that's also trying is a warm feeling. it's nice (and weird) that all these complete strangers are cheering you on. they even sign their comments with "baby dust to you all." wait, have i just joined a cult?
- patience. when i can find it in me, i try not to obsess. all the blogs say to enjoy the time you have without a baby. so this is me. being patient.....
we officially started the baby dance on october 30th, 2011. it was crazy and exciting and romantic and hopeful. since we know we're as ready as we'll ever be, i stepped it up by ordering an ovulation predictor kit (opk). it sounds clinical and sterile, but from my research, it was one of the most hassle free ways to predict my fertile window. fuuuurrrtile. i've now added that to my list of words i take issue with, such as 'moist.'
we're now on our 4th month during the roller coaster known as the two week wait (tww) between fertile times and aunt flow's arrival. even though we're still considered at the beginning of what can be a long process, during the tww, i've become
- the first month. i had three migraines in a row within a week. i consulted the google doctors who said all the hormone fluctuations could lead to that. i wondered if we nailed it on the first attempt! (pun intended)
- the second month. i really kicked it up with my paranoia. every single thing became abnormal for that month. that is until my period arrived.
- the third month. i came home from work and took a 2 hour nap. i also had really crazy vivid dreams. that combined with the cramps, and i was definitely pregnant. then the bitch came again.
- the fourth month. here we are. i just woke up from a nap. i'm feeling twinges in my lower abdomen. i'm crazy gassy, but that's not unusual. (ooo, too much?) and i've had all of these exact "symptoms" before. except this weird left eye twitching. oh but that started way before we even started trying. drats.
so. it took me 4 months to learn to not be hypersensitive until i miss my period and get a positive pregnancy test. and really, i haven't even learned that. but with 4 months under my belt, i do have a barometer of what's not abnormal. so i've toned down the over analyzing, and i'm calling that a small victory. here are other things that have helped.
- my awesome mister. david has been so super fantastic throughout this process. understanding when i painstakingly describe each weird thing that could increase our chances. understanding when i describe each symptom and what it could & couldn't mean. it makes me so excited to have a family with someone who tolerates my crazy.
- blogs. reading blogs through google searches has been surprisingly helpful. just the sense that there's a community out there that's also trying is a warm feeling. it's nice (and weird) that all these complete strangers are cheering you on. they even sign their comments with "baby dust to you all." wait, have i just joined a cult?
- patience. when i can find it in me, i try not to obsess. all the blogs say to enjoy the time you have without a baby. so this is me. being patient.....
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